“Looking back, it’s easy to see when a mistake has been made… to regret a choice that seemed like a decent idea at the time, but if we used our best judgment and listened to our hearts, we are more likely to see that we chose wisely and avoided the deepest most pain regret of them all – the regret from letting something amazing pass you by. ” – G.A.

The pain was sickening. I knew it was coming but it was still a breath taking blow. My stomach lay inside my chest and I thought I was going to be sick. As soon as he nodded his head up and down admitting his actions I fell to my knees crying. I never thought it would be like that. I thought I would be strong, be able to walk away. I guess I have just never been that in love with a person before.

Just last week my boss had made a statement “if my husband ever cheated I would be out in a heartbeat.” I smiled, didn’t say anything, nodded my head in agreement. Of course, because it is the common sense thing to do. Right? When you are with someone, married or not, there are rules (unless otherwise stated). In those rules, written in bold and underlined it states you are supposed to be honest and faithful to one person, and one person only. If someone breaks that rule, breaks your heart, you’re allowed to walk away. But the question is: can you? Can you physically walk away from someone you have been with for years? Someone you have pictured the rest of your life with? Husband… Father of your children… Partner.. Best Friend… Love of your life… Can you just walk away?

More ashamed than I was for being someone that was cheated on, I wanted him even more. I wanted him to hold me, prove to me it was the biggest mistake of his life and hold me until I literally felt all the love that he had for me. More than trust in the fact that he wouldn’t ever hurt me again, the trust in the fact that he really did love me the way I love him flew completely out the window. So how do you repair yourself? How do you build yourself back up and believe that everything happens for a reason; what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger; life will go on and forgiveness will set you free?

-A